Taylor Swift came on while I was watching Valentines Day on HBO Demand and it dawned on me. Something new that I learn everyday with the thoughts of you still bubbling inside me.
It isn't that I resent you for how you left me, or how we left things. It isn't that i'm bitter. It is the fear of how you remember me. The questions of if you see having been with me to be a regret.
I fear that when you think of me all you remember is what you didn't want, the regrets you have, the negatives... and not remember the good times that we had.
Sure I was and maybe still am in love with you, or I was just in love of the idea of you but it pains me that I have had no effect on you.
I feel as if I was your only regret and that is what pains me the most....
You still surround everything I do, everywhere I go, the air I breathe. I still can't seem to listen to Taylor Swift which you loved or let go of the impact everything that has anything to do with you has on me.
Another day, old wounds they never fade. I just hope its sunny tomorrow and hopefully that will keep me content one more day.
One day at a time.
